My parents are giving me the opportunity to study abroad

I don't know how to feel about this, there's only one year to go which I know won't last long, by then I'll have to choose :T

I always try to think "Just go! Choose to go. It's an opportunity, you can come back if you can't do it"
but there are so many other things to think about and I always overanalyze everythinggg

My parents only tell me the option of going to the US buut there are other countries, [Europe discarted because it might be too expensive]
but what about Canada and the rest of south America (any other country is more developed that this one... not being pessimistic,,, it's just that,,, there really IS a big difference)

and also there is the fact that
your success depends on your own effort and blalbalhff. That I might do well in here.
I've gotten interested in Illustration BUT there isn't even that option in any university of this place. The closest thing is Graphic Design but I'm NOT interested...

I'm thinking about so many things
one of them is,,maybe taking a year off is a good idea, I could study art and actually try to find a style etcetc
and learn the basics and technique but then I think that I really want to leave this country quickly to get rid of many troublesome things.......

and that thought leads me to 'how could I possibly survive on my own? me, the most dependant person on earth....... and in other languange...... '

and one more thought...
why am I choosing art?
..-.-.-.-.

english...
I gave the toefl test.
Crappiest test I've done, agakj It's so embarrassing :C The speaking part was the crappiest for me. and Reading.
Listening was ok
writing was ok.

hopefully my score is higher than 80.............................................. I have no idea.

Maybe I should make this account a 'sketch and doodle' account until I start drawing pretty things I'm able to upload in a decent account

So this might be filled with memes and crap and those posts with 230948 pics on them
it's a warning :}

does anyone still watch me ? XD

bueno no creo que nadie que hable inglés me siga watcheando asi que


ahi pongo todo lo que hago, sketch, "acabados" todo... .
(dibujo bien poco)
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